I really don’t know what’s going on my mind why I said YES to him. I don’t love him nor like him in any way. I was just curious of him. When I first noticed the guy, he was so quite. I want to know him more. That night when he courted me I was really shocked because I told to myself that if this man will court me I’ll never give him a chance, but when he courted me, there was a little voice lingering on my mind to give him a chance. I said yes the night I was guilty. To be frank, he never courted me like many guys out there who give chocolates and stuff toys. He was so plain and “nothing special about him”. Later on, I am starting to fall for him. I really don’t know why, it just happened. I love him, I love him and I love him… I am happy having him.
Sometimes, I wish I never gave him the chance to be part of my life especially when he attempted to cheat on me. That night when I have found out his infidelity, I wanted to shout, I wanted to point my finger on him and tell him how dare he is. As far as I remember I didn’t cheat nor attempted to cheat him. How could he hurt me that way? I cried that night and told him how bad he was. He kept on asking forgiveness until now. I can’t move on that easily because the man concerned is I truly love. I wanted to move on, get myself back, but each time I attempt to do that my heart is torn into pieces. I can’t go on with my life if he is not with me. I wish I could do that in time, in the right time.
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